Crying Wolf

Posted by Matthew Crouch at 14:37

Crying wolf -A rant, as a form of speech, doesn't seek to accomplish or change anything; it exists to give release to the person articulating the rant.

My gut has been a problem since before the High Holidays one of the consequences of that is that I am beyond very cranky and that I have to fight with myself to be polite on even the most mundane social level. The gut problems affect my body’s serotonin level which leaves me depressed. So I am generally cranky and depressed and it’s winter at such high latitude. So again writing for me is a therapy space for frustrations beyond me. It’s no secret writing can be psychologically cathartic. It doesn’t reflect my objective experience only my twisted mind fuck of a subjective take on things that are bigger than me that go against the grains of my conscience like the politics back home.

As far as the left and right in the states (I have on more than one occasion had a laugh from listening to Rush Limbaugh – and in theory I support his work – in practice though I don’t really care what he says)… NPR and the voice of the left of center are colored to some degree to suit themselves as well. In the states though the left is still globally speaking to the far right of center so I wouldn’t say NPR and all that is pushing things really past the left of center. The Democrats are still after all a right winged party just left of the repuglicanz. Anyways I used to vote Republican but I never will again and in theory the old Republicans ideally were a great lot of nation builders. My hero’s Lincoln and Whitman were Republicans after all but they were entirely a different sort than Bush II and family. What I find unforgivably sad about the present day politix of the current administration is how much it is disillusioning vast populations and not just for Europeans or the Americas - from the people I met in Pakistan and Yemen this was also the case so now everyone is looking for something else to believe in when it comes to government, nation building and national identity – The Republicans might as well dismantle Lady Liberty and put her pieces in cold storage.

Anyhow my writing is my literal stab at exercising and maintaining my own personal freedom of speech. If you don’t use it you’ll loose it! Plus I like to have fun with self publishing. It is my time to go back into kindergarten and be allowed to use every bad word for a few minutes before going back into thinking and speaking properly. Doing this reveals my inner psycho self to me and keeps me informed of my depressive handicapped condition (which is admittedly in winter mode). So you should only be worrying when I am not writing or not writing anything worrisome!

Regarding the US’s catastrophic sins of selfishness compared to various EU sins: No matter that Holland or the EU or Belgium have their bad side they do especially in the Dutch speaking world they are really into fascist politix and shamelessly so. Whenever I have to drive into provincial Flanders at every turn on the side of buildings are billboards for the new extreme right party Vlaams Belang (think Flemish first) which is the reincarnation of the outlawed Vlaams Bloc (Deemed unconstitutional for it’s blatant racist platform). Keep in mind while we are on comparisons that outlawed Islamist political parties in Pakistan for example result in members who are still active ending up in jail. In Belgium though they just rename the party re-receive denied state funds and carry on with business as usual. Pakistan should be praised for a change in this comparison. As far as EU sins though compared to my Vader land of Amerika – the difference is the EU members aren’t off invading Afghanistan, Iraq or threatening to do so in Iran and Syria – neither are they holding people hostage as criminals in a Cuban based prison camp without so much as a trial. Neither does the EU have any one in office who got there originally by a miscarriage of election in breech of democratic processes current with the times we live in – Neither are they pandering fear as a way to make political gains and to rewrite constitutional guarantees and neither are they thank God a military superpower. So I do firmly believe that different rules apply to the states until there is a balance of power. As long as the states has this Military Industrial complex with Zionist influences acting out of order with democracy and globally acceptable norms then I feel the States can defend itself from my exercising my rights with my creative freedom of thought, speech and press.

For all the talk I hear (from people I know still in the states) about the other half of the nation that is against Bush II well they aren’t making the news over here with whatever they are doing. The half of the nation back home against a second Bush II administration term are not taking to the streets in peaceful or bloody protests – there is no revolution occurring so they are silently complicit to the Bush II second terms regime agenda.

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C’mon America do your country a favor and at least be equally as critical of your government as it is powerful and influential! This is what I am committed to doing with self publishing in this blogette. That is why my blog is as it is and not as I intended a fun comparison of life in Belgium with life back in old Ohio. I must though confess that when these kinds of repug- thugs (republican thugs) are in the oval office or as I like to say in the awful orifice! Well I find these times in a way more fun because then I feel I have permission to have an anarchical hatred of the USA/CIA/Industrialist Complexes – I mean I really feel inspired to explore my freedoms of thought, speech and press however impolite or offensive that maybe. And I like being cranky! It makes me smile and chuckle all on my own!

Despite being persistantly cranky I do literally count my blessings. My man and the dogs are at the top of the list. As is Belgium and our home here in Bru-town. I am also VERY thankful to be out of the states at this time. It's a funny twist of fate in that my partner and I wanted to stay in the states and it turned out to be in our best interest to make our home here after all. I am fast approaching two years away from our old home there in Ohio without a visit and I really don’t want to go back at all. In fact that is all a very conscious personal protest to things there. I only wish my father would visit me here or that we could visit each other in Canada and Mexico so I could remain true to my deepest conviction in this matter. If the states won’t let Bart live there with me then I want nothing to do with that country for that is not freedom. I don’t care what they call it marriage or same sex partnership the states has gone too far in my personal life too many times – just try going through puberty with sodomy laws in a Christian theocracy of a suburb! Until the states changes this samesex binational issue in our favor I will not go around speaking about my birthplace positively! After learning what I have about my fatherland from my life experience and its present vantage point outside of the states I will never see it the same again.

Being anti American as an American is the result of a truly free country and it makes it a great nation but more and more there are new constraints on expressing thoughts against the states. Anyway I will not ever happily pay taxes to a excessively motorized over militarized war mongering police state without national health care or decent educational systems politely without giving in my two cents worth of criticism! Critical analysis can make a better nation and people and this is what is lacking from the states these days! At this point in history there it is indeed a very patriotic thing to be vitriolic in expressing anti-American speech plus given what the states is doing these days that is easy, fun as well as good for the nation and world.

Cranky anarchist expat Matt